Thursday, March 25, 2010

this day


Two years ago, this day was a Tuesday.

For the morning, I was married.

Well before noon, my kids had two parents.


But by 10:30 am, life as we knew it was shattered. Broken and irrepairable.


I will never know again life as it was before this day two years ago...And I will forever be scarred and lost without the love of my life.


I miss you, my Baby Pumpkin. I miss you. No words seem sufficient in describing the void that has been left since you've gone. So, I miss you and hope that somewhere out there, you know....and you miss me right back.


I love you the whole pie for eternity.....


42 comments:

ryanandjoesmom said...

Thinking of you extra hard today and wishing I could give you a huge hug in person. Hope you can feel it, regardless.

xoxoxo

Dianne said...

((Hugs))

Anonymous said...

Hi Jackie,

I've been thinking of you in the past couple of days. How far you've come that you've been feeling little bubbles of bliss this week. Isn't life strange and mysterious? You've done suck hard work over the past two years.
Love,
Nan

Dana said...

((((hugs))) and warm thoughts today.

wordnerd said...

I found you via Matt Logelin, I am very sorry for your loss. I'm sending you as much grace and courage as I can possibly find.

Jessica Seuss said...

Thinking of your family today as well.

Abby said...

You are on my mind today... Be kind to yourself. please consider this a huge virtual healing hug.

Sol said...

HOLA Jackie
My thoughts and prayers are with you and the kids today and ALWAYS!
HUGS HUGS HUGS and MORE HUGS from down here
Much love
Sol from Argentina

Anonymous said...

lots of love to you and the kiddos today...Thinking of you, more than usual on this sad day.

xoxo Jeffra

darcie said...

Jackie, I love you.
I'm thinking of you and the kids ~ wish you could be here so we could all wrap our creepy sloppy love around you.
xoxo

Anonymous said...

Thinking of you today, and praying for you and your family.

Hawkfeather said...

I hope you know the gift you have given us all Jackie.. the little things i now let go of that before i met you would have plagued me...the different way I choose to face problems and encounter my world..

and I hope you know you are loved.. and we are grateful for what you share..

KrustyTheCat said...

My husband died of a pulmonary embolism on October 10th 2009. I am so sorry for your loss. My blog addy is sixbendersandadog.blogspot.com

Kamaile said...

Peace be with you.

Suddenwidow said...

Hugs and love to you, Liv and Briar today. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Thank you for your email. I appreciate your kind words and sweetness. It did/is suck/sucking but you continue to inspire me. I will call you and I look forward to seeing you all in July. Take care, my friend.

In Due Time said...

Coming over from Matt. My condolences. I'll be making a donation to the Liz Logelin foundation in your husbands memory.

((Hugs))

Anonymous said...

Some days will never be easy...thinking of you and wishing you peace and happiness...
Meg...CT

Anonymous said...

i'm a follower of matt - please know that there are people out here/there that are thinking of you today.

elise.elaine said...

I just found your blog, I am so sorry for your loss. I felt compelled to comment though because of this loss. We lost my dad very suddenly to a brain aneurysm on January 11, 2007. He turned 62 while in the hospital for 5 days. My mother was left widowed young and with children, very suddenly. (we were homeschooled children as well) you are an amazingly strong woman and as I tell my mother constantly I respect and admire what you have been able to go through. When life handed you the worst of situations, you have made it through and put your children first. Thank you for being an amazing mother. Your children will always love you for it.

-Elise

Jill said...

Jackie,

I can't say much because I'm sitting here at my desk... on my lunch break... and I can feel what you're saying.

Time changes some aspects of your grief I know, but you love him just as much as always, so of course you'll miss him just as much too.

Thinking of you and Olivia and Briar a little extra today!

Melissa said...

Much love to you and your family today Jackie. You have come so very far.

Desha said...

Thinking of you and the kiddos today...

AKA "Meesh" said...

Hugs and awesomesauce juju, beautiful lady. You're an inspiration!

Anonymous said...

thinking about you and your beautiful children on this really hard day. thank you for blessing us with your blog. You are an amazing woman!

((hugs)) and blessings,
Jess

Anonymous said...

Thinking about all of you today. My love and support to you and your beautiful children.

Heidi

Kris Stutz said...

Thinking of you and your kids today, Jackie. Sending extra hugs and love. I hope you find peace in your wonderful memories....

Victoria said...

I am so so sorry for your loss *big hugs*

adventurepath said...

If interested...I suggest the book "FROM HEARTBREAK TO HAPPINESS" from AURORA WINTER...its free online

Anonymous said...

Jackie - I found you through Matt's blog, and I remember you speaking last year at the LLF gala. You and your family are in my thoughts today. Sending hugs from MN

Amber said...

I am thinking of you, and your kids, today.

Anonymous said...

This day,2 years ago, well maybe a few days after....I began checking your blog, Jackie. I was so relieved, although I didn't know you very well, then....when you wrote those first words..."I am still here." You must have been trembling as you typed. I just want to thank you for sharing these 2 years with all of us. I know we have all grown thanks to your willingness to share. I hope today isn't too hard on you. You've endured so much, Dear Heart.

xoxo, Tanis, who loves you BIG!

Katie said...

many prayers and hugs from afar for you on this difficult day, and for all the rest of the difficult days.

Bridie said...

Hi Jackie, Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you all today,

Anonymous said...

have thought so much about you and your family this week. your strength, honesty, compassion is beautiful. peace be with you today.

Alison said...

::HUGS::

Mama_Bear_Sarah said...

been thinking of you all day and wondering how your heart is holding up.

much love.
Sarah

Molly said...

Hi Jackie. Thinking about you today also.

Corinne Cooper said...

Jackie,

Just wanted you to know you are thought of today. Oh & Liv looks just like Jeff...what a gift :)

-Corinne

Poppy and Mei said...

XXxx.

Cadi said...

Thinking of you and sending you lots of love.

Marissa said...

I love you.
Those kids love you.
And I KNOW he loves you too.

Thinking of you today, and every day,
Me

Krista said...

Thinking of you on this tough, tough day. Remembering all you've been through these last 2 years (and I know it's not possible for any of us to know the half of it). Admiring your strength and courage. <3