Tuesday, March 23, 2010

tiny bubbles of bliss

The warm sun shining on the kitchen floor. A radiant rainbow glowing on the wall. The first ladybug I've seen this Spring. The chickens industriously scratching in the garden alongside me. Glorious fresh air in the kids hair. Listening to them giggle as they play in the mud in barefeet.

There are times that these things mean nothing. Times that I could pass these moments without notice. Without a glance or a grin.
But today, I felt joy. Luxurious and silly bubbles of happiness as I pondered the rainbow in the hall, walked away and returned with my camera to document this moment of bliss.

This week is not one that I will enjoy for the rest of my life. First Jeff's birthday, then the day he died only nine days after. But, strangely, and almost guiltily, I felt happiness today. It surged through me and brought peace. I felt quiet. I felt full.

So this week, as the loss of my love is felt so strongly, I may have to pull out the pictures of these pockets of pleasure and be reminded that there is still joy, wonder and love....It's just not always where I expect it to be.

7 comments:

Amber said...

I'm keeping you in my thoughts right now, and I'm glad you're finding joy.

Poppy and Mei said...

XXxx.

Hawkfeather said...

Jackie- you will be on my mind and in my heart this week- sending lots of love..
and as much virtual support as I can muster.

BethinNC said...

I believe that it is in the most difficult times that we are able to notice the "tiny bubbles of bliss", which we might not have even given a second thought to otherwise. That is what I want to do as I take this journey of widowhood.

Thanks for sharing -- loved the little rainbow -- HOPE AND PROMISE!

Blessings to you in this difficult week. May you continue to experience those "tiny bubbles of bliss".

Janine (txmomx6) said...

Beautiful, Jackie.
Hugs to you this week.

Hip Mountain Mama said...

Thanks for sharing this. I am not sure if it is appropriate for me to comment as I just stumbled upon your blog, but I will be thinking of you and am glad that you have found some tiny bubbles of bliss on this day.
Suzy

Anonymous said...

I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sun on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.

I believe that those tiny bubbles come when we need them most...