Thursday, September 04, 2008

the end of the summer

Sandwiched in between having Eli put down and Liv's start at school, I went on a little trip again. I couldn't handle it at home by myself....So Freckles and I headed out. We headed back up to the old town. I camped. I ate at restaurants and visited with friends.
I took a RIDICULOUS amount of photographs.
Some were really weird....The dead fish was holding a napkin in its' mouth. Was it the cause of his demise or did it happen post-mortem?
Time away from housecleaning, kid caretaking and chicken husbandry causes you to slow down...
Find quiet, colourful moments....
And see the beauty in things other than your kids.
I even found some beauty and a bit of renewed love in this guy. I swear he misses Eli. He's a lot more subdued without his 'backup'.
I loved moving slowly and just breathing....okay, breathing and taking pictures.
I love this place. It holds so many memories for me. It is so dear and precious.
I feel that if I just close my eyes, I'll see Jeff walking towards me when I open them.
Everything smells the same as before he left.
He's not here....But he is.







6 comments:

Anonymous said...

gReat pictUres.... love it...!!

leigh in the sav said...

your pictures are beautiful and i am so glad you took the time for yourself. good for you!

Kathryn said...

Wow, your pictures are truly so beautiful. They calm and uplift me, so I hope they're helping you too. Could you possibly start a photo gallery exhibit there? I really do think they'd sell quite well.

Kate said...

Beautiful pictures and beautiful words. (I love the fish with the napkin.)

Crash Course Widow said...

Great pictures, Jackie. I'm so glad that the small break, your camera, and the sense of closeness to Jeff at "your" place together helped you so much. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that the feeling will hold out for a bit when you're back at home and in the grind, and that you'll be able to find it in the small, mundane moments at your home too.

Hang in there.

Hugs,
Candice

Rach said...

Gorgeous photos - I can see why you love this place so much. x