Monday, September 01, 2008

good-bye buckethead/boner/eli

It is with great sadness that I write of the passing of my dear, sweet, loyal companion, Eli. He had been with me through thick and thin. I owed him the world. Instead, I released him from the frustration and pain associated with the paralysis of his hind end. A stoic trooper who loved to play, even at the end of his life, he will be so very sadly missed by me and the kids. As I said to him as he fell asleep in my arms, "Go to Daddy, Eli." and I can only hope he did.
I'll miss you eternally, buddy. I so hope that we will play frisbee again one day. I love you and no dog will ever be as good as you....especially not Fuckles....but he misses you too.

28 comments:

Andrea V said...

So sad for you in losing Eli. I am sure that Jeff will show him the ways . . . . Thinking of you.

Neurotic Chic said...

So sorry. I know it's a decision you'd been dreading. :(

Rach said...

So sorry that you had to make this horrible decision. I know you wil miss the old boy...

Kris in the MN said...

Jackie - I'm so, so sorry about Eli. I have been down this road too and I know how very hard it is to make the decision.

Know in your heart that Eli is with Jeff and they are playing frisbee together.

Thinking of you and sending you big hugs and love from the mn....

Crash Course Widow said...

Oh, Jackie, I'm so very sorry you're having to deal with this. Having to lose our beloved pet buddies--even when it's by a supposed choice--is so very hard when you're already grieving the loss of your loved one. I know; I've been there last summer.

Hang in there, sweetie. Sending you some love, support, and hugs.

~Candice

Anonymous said...

Jackie, I know how much he has ment to you over the years. I'm so sorry. I can't believe how hard this must be for you. We are all
keeping you in our thoughts.

leigh in the sav said...

I am so sorry this time came. I wish i could reach through this machine to give you a huge hug.

Eli was loved and adored by your whole family - it is truly evident. I know he will be missed, and the situation will be something else you are thrust in front of "getting used to" and I am so sorry it had to be now.

We are all thinking of you.

Maureen in the PA said...

Oh, Jackie-I don't even know what to say here. I am so very sorry about Eli and know that this has to be incredibly hard for you. To lose another family member so soon is just not fair. But know that you gave Eli a great life. You are in my thoughts and I wish you peace....

Chris said...

Jackie -
What a courageous decision. You know Eli is much more comfortable now, but damn it sucks to bring on more pain. Thinking of you.

(((hugs)))

darcie said...

oh Jackie - I'm sorry. Trust that he did go to Daddy and they are once again looking out for each other -
Take care Jackie - take good care -
darcie

indybarb said...

Such a difficult decision to make Jackie, but sometimes a necessity. I'm so glad you got to have Eli as your dog during this lifetime. What a beautiful dog and a great companion. My prayers are with you.

Hugs,

Barb

Kate said...

I am so sorry. That is such a hard thing to do.

Kellie said...

I'm so sorry to hear of the loss of your companion. I know the pain of losing a loved pet as well. It hurts so bad, but let the knowledge that you provided him with a wonderful life be your comfort. It is such short time of joy that pets bring you, however it is still SO worth it.

Hang in there...

Elfie33 said...

*hugs* I'm so sorry.
This poem always gave me comfort when I lost a beloved pet.

"Rainbow Bridge"

By the edge of a woods, at the foot of a hill,
Is a lush, green meadow where time stands still.
Where the friends of man and woman do run,
When their time on earth is over and done.

For here, between this world and the next,
Is a place where each beloved creature finds rest.
On this golden land, they wait and they play,
Till the Rainbow Bridge they cross over one day.

No more do they suffer, in pain or in sadness,
For here they are whole, their lives filled with gladness.
Their limbs are restored, their health renewed,
Their bodies have healed, with strength imbued.

They romp through the grass, without even a care,
Until one day they start, and sniff at the air.
All ears prick forward, eyes dart front and back,
Then all of a sudden, one breaks from the pack.

For just at that instant, their eyes have met;
Together again, both person and pet.
So they run to each other, these friends from long past,
The time of their parting is over at last.

The sadness they felt while they were apart,
Has turned into joy once more in each heart.
They embrace with a love that will last forever,
And then, side-by-side, they cross over… together.

Katie J said...

Oh Jackie, I'm so sorry. I hope it gives you some comfort to know how many people are thinking of you always and sending good thoughts your way.
It makes me smile to think that Jeff and Eli are together again...
Sending lots of virtual **hugs** to you and your beautiful children.

Danielle said...

Thinking of you........It just fucking sucks!

Laurie said...

Oh Jackie, I am so so sorry. Losing a beloved pet is tough.

Keeping you my thoughts today. Hang in there and take care.

Kate said...

I *never* cry. But your pup's precious face made me cry. Sweet baby!

This is my baby girl:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/katerz1/2606659638/

What IS it about the love of dogs? So loyal and true...

Hang in there, Jackie.

Christa said...

:(. Buckethead was an adorable dog. I had to laugh at your names for him cuz we too have about 3 or 4 names for each one of our cats. I can only imagine how many we'll have for our dogs once we have them. We already have names for the dogs now. Nothing for future kids, but the future dogs are all planned out.

I also wish I could reach through and give you a big hug. I know how hard a decision like this and I wish I could take the pain away, even for just a second.

hudson-wi said...

thinking of you and wanted to express my sympathy... I'm so sorry for your loss. HUGS from a stranger/friend in WI.

Jenn said...

I almost miscarried my baby last year crying over a dog that got hit on the road (our dog)...I understand that grief.

Marissa said...

Oh Jackie, I'm so sorry.

Anonymous said...

Jackie,

I read Matt's blog. I want to say how sorry I am about Eli. I can identify. It is so hard. You have dealt with so much this year. I am sorry. Thinking of you in the MN.

Anonymous said...

There are no words to describe how sorry I am.

Laurie

Molly in Mpls said...

Jeez, what the f**k?!? You have had so much crap to deal with. Its just not right. I'm so sorry. Hang in there!

Poppy and Mei said...

What a good 'ole boy...Xxx

juanita said...

Hi Jackie,

What a fucked up decision to have to make, especially while coping with Jeff's death. Maybe Eli and Jeff in a boat in whatever it is that comes after.

I'm sending you and your precious children many, many hugs as you deal with yet another unfair loss.

xxxxx

Duchess said...

Thinking of you and hugging my crazy beagle pupp boy. I just started reading your blog and you are a beautiful writer and the love you have for your kids comes across so vividly.