I've removed my previous two posts as I have found what we had lost. Thank you so very, very much everyone for your support. I'll write more about it all at another time.....
All I can say, is I am sick of drama. I want to live a very boring life. A quiet life. One where I know what to expect and can take things slowly and quietly. I am sure it is just a dream but I need rest from chaos. I want willing to learn and grow from all that life has to teach us. I want to evolve. But I am so exhausted from all the changes that have occurred in the last year. It makes every mundane thing that I felt compelled to complain about in my 'past life' (before Jeff died) a desired and wonderful thing - the luxury of finding fault in stupid vacuous shit.
Here's the story.
2 days ago