It's been five months since you left us. I miss you as much as I did that first day... more than that first day. I have so many questions. So many things that I want to share with you. Things have changed so much and not at all. I wish/hope you could see the kids. They're growing so much.
I have to keep reminding myself to not look at what has happened as unfortunate in their lives (which it is of course) but as something that will and is making them who they are supposed to be. That is true for me as well....but I need to feel sorry for us now and then.
I try to tell myself that you were done whatever you were sent here to do, and although, we weren't finished loving you and being with you, we had to let you go. It wasn't our choice. Liv asks what you were sent here to do. I tell her that you were sent to bring smiles and laughter to so many people. You were sent to bring amazing children into the world. You were sent to be a fabulous daddy and a good man. You were sent to love us as we were sent to love you....your 'visit' was just too bloody short, in my opinion.
The Silencing of a Poet
4 weeks ago