Thursday, June 05, 2008

exhausted

You know that feeling of utter fatigue that you have never experienced until you've had a newborn baby....okay, a newborn AND an older child? Yeah, the one where you're concerned that fellow drivers are going to call the cops on you to report you as a drunk driver? Where you are crazed with feelings of needing to sleep and become frantic with the deprivation?

Yeah. That's me. Is it just life? Or is it the exhaustion of grief?

5 comments:

Rach said...

I think you are right - you are exhausted from grieving. Just let people help you where they can so you can try and get some rest. x

Poppy & Mei said...

Both...Xxx

RunninL8 said...

Just the ebb and flow of life, no matter what's going on.
About your previous post: Two of the books I've read in the past that I wish I had a hundred copies of so that I could hand them out to peaople are The Celestine Prophecy and Conversations with God. Both have answered many of my questions about coincedence and synchronicity. Check them out if you haven't read them yet.
I'm not sure if I have said "HI!" and posted here yet, so greetings from Alaska! I've wanted to say that the pain does subside in time. Never fully goes away but eases into a gentleness that allows a working strength and quiet reverence from memories.
i wish you peice of mind and light.
And just what IS that prehistoric thing peaking out of the mud?!?!?!?

RunninL8 said...

Jeez nice spelling , huh?!?!
That would be PEACE!!!!

pchi said...

you are growing new deep roots...fast...it takes a lot of energy...the mind races around trying to put words to experiences that are beyond words...but great benefits will come...like real wisdom and deep understanding...looking at your photos we all can see your connection to beauty, creation, and rejuvenation in the midst of despair...you are asking the right questions...the deep heart questions...my experience is that answers will come that will clarify your faith and belief in your path....we are so much more than we know.
Many many thanks for your achingly detailed window into your journey that resonates with universal truths we can all identify with.
My wish for you right now is a vacation moment so you can sleep...is there anyone in your life that could take Liv and Briar for a few days?
Big love to you Jackie
pchi